Wow.

first off:
Fuck you. Just FUCK YOU. Listen joker, I don't have the slightest bit of time for people who try and use scare tactics against me. I don't want to see your fucking doctor picture and I sure as hell won't be going to your fucking blog. Playing off an already scared girls legitimate phobia is just fucking sick. I don't expect to see you posting here again.

God. Fuck that picture. Anyway, on with the show.

I just now remembered to look at the comments section of the post before this one. I'm sorry to say I missed Zeke. I've trying to stay away from the others but this is getting out of control. I guess I'll do some snooping around, reading what I can. I'm just.... I'm done. I'm not staying in the dark about this.

But gods I'm scared. And I still don't know if I should pick up that camera or not. But I suppose I'll show you the pictures, tomorrow perhaps.

A darkened rainbow
A featureless face
A change in flow
A change in pace

Let's see what we might unfold
Of a tale yet untold

arms

I see him. In the corner. I think I've known all along he was there. I'll just change it again soon in the hopes that he goes away. Please let him leave.

I stayed home today. My arms, well I can't say a cat did it this time.




I took a nap and had a dream, though I'm beginning to wonder if they are really dreams.

I don't know if you can see them well. They are scratches. They didn't break the skin, but raised up and were very, very red. They still hurt.

I need to know more, it's scaring me. Do you believe watching those videos will help? Will researching this help? I need help, and you guys seem to know how to help. Why didn't I listen, gods why didn't I listen? Gods I hope I'm not insane.

I'm going to try some poetry. I don't know if It'll work, I don't know if there will be a message. I don't plan to check. I do not feel well.

Search The Trees
Search The Sky
Oblivious or obvious?
A simple little trick?
Do they truly mean anything?
Would you like a hint?
HA HA

Done. I don't know if this will help, it's my hope they will. Should I continue with these poems? I just don't know.

I'm lost.

Ooops

I SKIPPED A DAY?!?!? OH THE TRAGEDY.

Why didn't I just press capslock? My finger actually slipped off of the shift key twice writing that.

YES. WELL..... anyway yesterday I was in a lip singing contest and it was thoroughly embarrassing... let' just say I was butterfree and the pokemon theme song was involved >.>

IN OTHER MORE EXCITING NEWS: My mom also had no idea that I even had an imaginary friend and it's not like I could find pictures of him, right? So I'm left here wondering what exactly he was like. I think he was bald, honestly. I can't really remember his face. We used to dance you know.

oookay, random but whatever. Jesus christ supertar This post is boring, I'll end my misery here and get on with the poem =P

darker than the black of nIght
and WhIter than the stars
no other coLors grace his presence
untouched is he
by even gray
the perfection of the bLack Suit
and the flawlEssnEss of the white shirt
he holds no colors in his heart
as he holds no love for life
meet with HIM and i SO fear
i'll nOt see you again this Night

wow, weird capitalization. Shift finger kept slipping and being a general weirdo, but I left it because I'm LAZY!

Today's Color:
BLACK

OHMYGODWHYYYY?!

Why can I never think of a title?

SO TODAY I kept clicking on links and they would somehow ALWAYS LEAD ME TO PLAGUE DOCTOR'S not like every link I clicked lead me to the same picture or anything, that'd be way freaky, but an astounding amount of links have lead to them today.

The problem with this? They terrify me. Like, google imaging them and trying to look through makes me almost cry and I have to click away in like 20 seconds. I can't stand them

In other news, my dear best friend is already hung up on a guy after breaking up with her boyfriend (she says it's more like she's allowed to like him now) I ask her who. She tells me to guess. This is one of the single most enraging things on my list of things that enrage me. HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHY?!?!?! No, just tell me, or at least give an obvious hint, making me guess makes me feel like a retard if I guess wrong. I hate it so ridiculously much. Of course once she finally tells me my guess is correct.

Anyway the guy she likes is the one that is trying to set me and Matt up. weirdo's. But in any case he's also the guy that told her SHE needed to have sex with Matt even though she had a boyfriend. To which he replied 'So? just because you have a boyfriend doesn't mean you can't bone another guy. I've done it' which despite making me laugh because it sounded like he was gay, also made me not trust him.

I also have a tiny crush on him, but I'm never one to act on those things (which may explain the singular boyfriend I broke up with in, like, two months out of annoyance) plus she declared like first and she talks to him all the time. I'd have to turn him down even if he declared his love for me tomorrow. Plus I don't trust him.....

HOLY FUCKING SHIT 2, that random poem from yesterday seems so....incriminating now. Stupid future-telling poems >.>

Todays poem:
Once upon a time
When Prism was but a small girl
somewhere younger than nine
She had a best friend; face whiter than a pearl
He was always well dressed
going to a wedding?
Her only friend; he was the best
Or was it to a funeral he was heading?
She wishes he'd come back
She'd hug his suit so black

That was so epically horrible, it puts my imaginary friend to shame. I do so miss him. It was weird about him, he'd never come inside unless I was using a camera or something. Otherwise we'd always play outside XD He was a pretty cool dude I guess, I don't remember much about him =P

Today's color:
Slate Gray

RAWR

8D I ate so much today >.> it's a wonder I'm not 300 pounds by now XD Yeah, I don't really have much to say about today, but I feel like keeping a journal so =P I'll write here every day without fail unless something bad happens to me, in which case, assume the worst -solemn music-

Well, I'm entering a lip singing contest on tuesday with my friends and we decided that one of my friends will lip sync the pokemon theme song and me & the other friend will be pokemon who battle. It's super fun and hilarious. I can't wait.

Poem:
If only
you could see how you're affecting me
if only
we could be together side by side and see
if only
She could let you go without a care
if only
we weren't the best of friends then it would be fair
if only
I opened up and shared my feelings
if only
I didn't feel bad about secret dealings
if only
you weren't the only person she saw
if only
she wasn't perfect to you; without a flaw
if only you could have seen me, instead of my best friend.

Wow, that spur-of-the-moment poem sounds really bad in retrospect since my best friends boyfriend broke up with her yesterday 0.0; but really, I have no romantic life whatsoever so.....yeah.... I suck at life ;_;

Today's color:
Dark Orchid

Here we go!

Well, I decided to start this blog because I've been really bored recently =D I guess I'll just post about my life in general, it'll be great fun I'm sure. I guess I'll do this journal style and write about today =P

Well....today I didn't do much other than continually remind myself that it's Thursday. One day of the week left after this then I can FINALLY have a calm weekend. My mom and all my nieces and nephews are out of town this weekend so it'll just be me, my papa, and my brother. Quiet time 8D

Now for a poem:
Her bright blue eyes
Her soft brown hair
the way she smiles
you just can't compare
like a rainbow flies
through the open air
to fill you with love
take away the despair
then in a flash she's gone
flying away without a care
as her lifeless body
is lying there

I do so love off-the-top-of-my-head-and-badly-written-poems 8D I honestly don't know why I wrote that, but maybe I'll make it a tradition. That might be fun ;D

Today's color:
Deep Pink